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		<title>ArtBook Tampa Bay</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 02 Mar 2012 18:30:09 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Fine Arts]]></category>
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		<description><![CDATA[Look for the new app in two weeks in the app store on your iPad! I&#8217;m one of the artists being published in the Artbook Tampa Bay! Come out and support the book, have some drinks and enjoy a night of Art! 96 artists in the new iPad app ArtBook Tampa Bay!!! http://www.facebook.com/events/400723583275231/]]></description>
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<p>I&#8217;m one of the artists being published in the Artbook Tampa Bay! Come out and support the book, have some drinks and enjoy a night of Art!<br />
96 artists in the new iPad app ArtBook Tampa Bay!!! </p>
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<img alt="" src="http://profile.ak.fbcdn.net/hprofile-ak-snc4/50552_400723583275231_1603182488_n.jpg" title="ArtBook Tampa Bay Launch Party!" class="alignnone" width="180" height="278" /><br />http://www.facebook.com/events/400723583275231/</a></p>
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		<title>Is the ocean floor getting bigger?</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 08 Nov 2011 20:25:06 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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		<title>Email any iFrame or Div as an email in your applications using javascript and forms</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 07 Apr 2011 14:04:31 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I&#8217;ve been trying to accomplish this for a while and it just struck me yesterday how to accomplish this task. I have done searches all over the internet looking for ways to email pages from my applications and finally I have done it!!! Every single site I looked at has always said &#8220;no, it can&#8217;t [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I&#8217;ve been trying to accomplish this for a while and it just struck me yesterday how to accomplish this task. I have done searches all over the internet looking for ways to email pages from my applications and finally I have done it!!! Every single site I looked at has always said &#8220;no, it can&#8217;t be done&#8221;. Even the most advanced sites I could find said &#8220;no, it can&#8217;t be done&#8221;. So here you go.</p>
<p>A little background before we get into the code:<br />
I&#8217;ve been using frame-sets for my applications for some time. I like the security of passing all form data into an iframe rather than showing url variables in the browser window url. It just looks cleaner to me, and I use very sophisticated menu systems that I&#8217;d prefer not to have to re load after every mouse click in my applications. So I have an application that consists of three frames topHeader, leftMenu and mainFrame. In the mainFrame is where most of the reporting and drilling etc&#8230; regular work stuff&#8230; goes. The topHeader and leftMenu both contain more specific navigation and information related to getting around and knowing where you are within the scope of the application.</p>
<p>Quite a while ago I devised a method using the below script to print any open window in the mainFrame without all the menu system:</p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;">function printMainWindowFrame() {<br />
if (window.mainFrame) {<br />
window.mainFrame.print();<br />
}	else if (window.frames['mainFrame']) {<br />
window.frames['mainFrame'].focus();<br />
window.frames['mainFrame'].print();<br />
}	else if (document.frames) {<br />
document.frames(&#8216;mainFrame&#8217;).focus();<br />
document.frames(&#8216;mainFrame&#8217;).print();<br />
}	else if (document.mainFrame) {<br />
document.mainFrame.focus();<br />
document.mainFrame.print();<br />
}<br />
}</p>
<p>Using this same script I am able to grab the full innerHTML from the body of the document in the mainFrame page and send it to a javascript email function. But no matter what you do, the email that is launched comes over with all the html tags converted to text and viewable in the window. Not the desired result! But you can copy and paste everything in a window into an email and it copies properly, so I figured there has to be a way to accomplish this!</p>
<p>Here is what I came up with &#8211; in the index of my main application page where all the frames and menus are loaded; I created a hidden form with the fields from, subject and body. I then grab the title of the window that is open in mainFrame document.mainFrame.document.title and put that into the Subject line which in my form is called emailSubject. Then grab the innerHTML of the document.body and put it in the form field emailPageFormBody. Then submit the form to another page in a hidden frame so it doesn&#8217;t take the open browser window anywhere else, a wa-la you&#8217;ve just emailed yourself a copy of the open report window!!!</p>
<p>My example if coldFusion &#8211; but you could use any email landing page in any language, perl, php, asp, C# &#8211; whatever!!!</p>
<p>Main Page:<br />
&lt;!DOCTYPE html PUBLIC &#8220;-//W3C//DTD XHTML 1.0 Frameset//EN&#8221; &#8220;<a href="http://www.w3.org/TR/xhtml1/DTD/xhtml1-frameset.dtd" target="_blank">http://www.w3.org/TR/xhtml1/DTD/xhtml1-frameset.dtd</a>&#8220;&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;html xmlns=&#8221;<a href="http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml" target="_blank">http://www.w3.org/1999/xhtml</a>&#8220;&gt;<br />
&lt;head&gt;<br />
&lt;meta http-equiv=&#8221;Content-Type&#8221; content=&#8221;text/html; charset=UTF-8&#8243; /&gt;<br />
&lt;title&gt;Title&lt;/title&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211; This is specific to my application &#8212;&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211; I have another set of scripts that size the frameset in my application based on the browser and available screen size &#8212;&gt;<br />
&lt;style type=&#8221;text/css&#8221;&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211;<br />
#mainFrame {<br />
position:absolute;<br />
left:150px;<br />
top:75px;<br />
width:800px;<br />
height:800px;<br />
z-index:2;<br />
}<br />
&#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;/style&gt;<br />
&lt;script language=&#8221;javascript&#8221;&gt;<br />
function mailpage() {<br />
if (window.mainFrame) {<br />
var MainFrameDOM = window.mainFrame.document.body;<br />
var MainFrameTitle = window.mainFrame.document.title;<br />
}	else if (window.frames['mainFrame']) {<br />
var MainFrameDOM = window.frames['mainFrame'].document.body;<br />
var MainFrameTitle = window.frames['mainFrame'].document.title;<br />
}	else if (document.frames) {<br />
var MainFrameDOM = document.frames(&#8216;mainFrame&#8217;).document.body;<br />
var MainFrameTitle = document.frames(&#8216;mainFrame&#8217;).document.title;<br />
}	else if (document.mainFrame) {<br />
var MainFrameDOM = document.mainFrame.document.body;<br />
var MainFrameTitle = document.mainFrame.document.title;<br />
}<br />
document.getElementById(&#8216;emailSubject&#8217;).value=MainFrameTitle;<br />
document.getElementById(&#8216;emailPageFormBody&#8217;).value=MainFrameDOM.innerHTML;<br />
document.getElementById(&#8216;emailPageForm&#8217;).submit();<br />
}<br />
&lt;/script&gt;<br />
&lt;/head&gt;<br />
&lt;body&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;!&#8211; this frame is sized when the initial page loads and is sized to fill most of the browser window &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211; this is the frame I want to set as my email function but it could be any frame in the DOM &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;iframe id=&#8221;mainFrame&#8221; frameborder=&#8221;0&#8243;&gt;&lt;/iframe&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211; almost all application functions, form inputs, reports, etc&#8230; all load in the mainFrame everywhere in my application so at any point the user can use the image button for the email function and it will email the existing DOM in the mainFrame as they see it by grabbing the DOM &#8211; placing the entire DOM in the form and then pass that variable to the email function where it will simply email the page to their email address as its stored in the ColdFusion session variables &#8211;&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;!&#8211; In my application this is in a div that shows only when the mouse is over a specific place in the menu system but you can use any text or image &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;a href=&#8221;javascript:mailpage();&#8221;&gt;&lt;img src=&#8221;/images/icons/mail2_16x16.gif&#8221; align=&#8221;middle&#8221; border=&#8221;0&#8243; style=&#8221;cursor:hand;&#8221; &gt;&lt;/a&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;!&#8211; This form is at the very bottom of my page but it could exist anywhere in the document: &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211; The most important part of this form is that its setup as a multiprt/form data and the method is post &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;form enctype=&#8221;multipart/form-data&#8221; name=&#8221;emailPageForm&#8221; id=&#8221;emailPageForm&#8221; method=&#8221;post&#8221; style=&#8221;display:none;&#8221; action=&#8221;emailPageForm.cfm&#8221; target=&#8221;processing&#8221;&gt;<br />
&lt;input type=&#8221;hidden&#8221; name=&#8221;FromAddress&#8221; value=&#8221;&lt;cfif IsDefined(&#8220;session.user_settings.c_email&#8221;)&gt;&lt;cfoutput&gt;#session.user_settings.c_email#&lt;/cfoutput&gt;&lt;/cfif&gt;&#8221;&gt;<br />
&lt;input type=&#8221;hidden&#8221; name=&#8221;emailSubject&#8221; id=&#8221;emailSubject&#8221; value=&#8221;"&gt;<br />
&lt;input type=&#8221;hidden&#8221; name=&#8221;emailBody&#8221; id=&#8221;emailPageFormBody&#8221; value=&#8221;"&gt;<br />
&lt;/form&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;!&#8211; this frame is hidden so that the form processing goes to a frame that is not displayed to the user &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;iframe id=&#8221;processing&#8221; name=&#8221;processing&#8221; style=&#8221;display:none;&#8221; frameborder=&#8221;0&#8243; width=&#8221;0&#8243; height=&#8221;0&#8243;&gt;&lt;/iframe&gt;<br />
&lt;/body&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;!&#8211; this is the coldFusion page emailPageForm.cfm &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;!&#8211; this could also be done using php mail code &#8211;&gt;<br />
&lt;cfmail to=&#8221;#FromAddress#&#8221; subject=&#8221;Page Requested From DSN&#8221; from=&#8221;user@domain.com&#8221; server=&#8221;mail.domain.com&#8221; type=&#8221;html&#8221; username=&#8221;username&#8221; password=&#8221;password&#8221;&gt;<br />
&lt;cfoutput&gt;#emailBody#&lt;/cfoutput&gt;<br />
&lt;/cfmail&gt;</p>
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		<title>The World Continues to connect in new ways!</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 04 Apr 2011 20:04:24 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
				<category><![CDATA[Fine Arts]]></category>
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		<title>The Case for eBay and PayPal &#8220;Buyer Protection&#8221;</title>
		<link>http://www.psmdesign.com/psmblog/?p=804</link>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 04 Apr 2011 15:53:36 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Its not often that I am proud of the way a business transaction has been handled when it has had a negative affect on my own personal finances. But I had to write an article about my first experience with a case involving the eBay Buyer Protection policies because I feel so strongly now that [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Its not often that I am proud of the way a business transaction has been handled when it has had a negative affect on my own personal finances. But I had to write an article about my first experience with a case involving the eBay Buyer Protection policies because I feel so strongly now that the transactions I have with eBay and PayPal are in fact well protected, as they claim.</p>
<p>I&#8217;ve been selling my out of date electronics through eBay since 2000 and have had dozens of things from computers to wifi devices that are still useable to people but no longer necessary in my life. I have tried my best to be a great eBayer and have not had any negative results from anyone on eBay; until now.</p>
<p>I sold an old computer, an iMac 24&#8243; flat screen all in one system, that we had been using to manage our music and video libraries for many years. We&#8217;ve kept the computer clean and free of dust and scratches on our desk at home in the office and it was a fantastic system for keeping track of everything from our music library to videos that we ripped from our DVDs to our entire life history of photos and videos captured over the years.</p>
<p>If you know anything about me personally then you&#8217;ll know that I am an extremely detail oriented person and I am proud of the way I manage all of my electronic equipment. But this particular time I was wrong in my assumptions and handled this transaction poorly, and in the end had to pay for my mistake.</p>
<p>We were displaced by the economic downturn for about a year and had to re-locate from Chicago back to my hometown in Tampa, Florida so all of our belongings had to be stored for some time in a storage facility here in Tampa and apparently while this computer was in storage some residue from bug bombs or something got into the LCD screen of this system and caused a yellow discoloration to occur in the LCD screen. We just never noticed the discoloration when we started using the system again because I never did anything on the computer that would have made me pay that much attention to the quality of the screen. And being an artist and color expert I just assumed that I would have noticed such a thing.</p>
<p>So I put the system up for sale on eBay and it sold quickly, then when the system sold I was out of town for a few days at the close of the sale, so it took me a few days to get back into town, find a box large enough to pack the system properly and get it sent out. Then once the person who bought the system received it he sent me a note through eBay saying the the color in the LCD screen had issues and he would prefer a refund. The buyer did all the right things, attempted to reset the color profiles, and even took it up to an Apple store to get it evaluated by one of the Apple Geniuses and got a quote for repairing the system so that it would be fully functional for him. At the same time I sold one of our old iPhones and the buyer never paid for it. I had never had a negative experience on eBay before so I became overly cautious about doing anything. Then the person who purchased my iMac sent me pictures of my computer sitting next to another identical system and mine clearly had a yellow tint to the screen and when he sent the pictures he explained that he had several of these systems and he couldn&#8217;t accept mine because of the screen discoloration.</p>
<p>I thought it was strange that someone would want several iMacs and became suspicious that he had switched screens with another system or was just trying to send me one of his damaged systems and have me accept the liability for a system that was not mine. When I was unwilling to settle with him because I didn&#8217;t believe his story he opened a case with eBay Buyer Protection regarding the issue and they in the end settled in his favor and refunded his money to him. Of course the money had to come from my PayPal account, so all of the money I thought I had in my account was no longer there. After about a week I finally received my system back and upon unpacking the system and looking at the screen and the system setup I could easily verify that this was in fact my computer and it did in fact have the yellow discoloration just as the buyer claimed.</p>
<p>I wouldn&#8217;t normally be writing about my own mistakes. But I felt that the protection that eBay claims to have for their products was handled so well by their company that I just had to write about the situation and say that even though this transaction was not in my favor and reflects poorly on the way I handled things, it gives me a much greater level of trust in using eBay and PayPal in the future, because now I know from my own experience that when they say they have your back, they actually mean what they say and they proved themselves in this case to have the buyer&#8217;s best interest in mind and lived up to their own mission statements; and it gives me a great sense of trust knowing that they will back me up when I buy or sell something through their system.</p>
<p>I have since sent an apology to the buyer for the negative experience in dealing with me and I will do my best to be a great eBay in the future. Kudos to eBay! What a great experience, handled with professionalism all the way through the process. Well except for me of course. I&#8217;ll do better in the future! I promise!</p>
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		<title>Thoughts on Suffering &#8211; Lamentations from a father and a husband</title>
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		<pubDate>Fri, 19 Nov 2010 18:44:37 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I am writing this in response to a discussion I began on Facebook about a quote by C.S. Lewis: Hopefully this will explain where my mind and heart are at. Tribulations cannot cease until God either sees us remade or sees that our remaking is now hopeless. C.S. Lewis &#8220;The Problem of Pain&#8221; There are many [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I am writing this in response to a discussion I began on Facebook about a quote by C.S. Lewis: Hopefully this will explain where my mind and heart are at.</p>
<p style="text-align: left;">Tribulations cannot cease until God either sees us remade or sees that our remaking is now hopeless. C.S. Lewis &#8220;The Problem of Pain&#8221;</p>
<p style="text-align: left;">There are many different types of suffering, self inflicted, inflicted by other people, consequences due to decisions you&#8217;ve made over the years, suffering because you love someone dearly and are a witness to their tragedies, etc&#8230;</p>
<p>All suffering I believe is allowed by God to occur in your life to transform you into the likeness of Jesus Christ. There are many many examples in the bible and many other manuscripts, stories, biographies, holy books, found in every religion and philosophy of this truth. <em><strong>He replied, “You are talking like a foolish woman. Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” In all this, Job did not sin in what he said. Job 2:10</strong></em> This is true of all kinds of suffering, mourning, grieving and pain. In my own case I am currently suffering through the grief of losing one of my children. I married my wife La&#8217;Shaun and her son MiKyail almost 16 years ago, MiKyail was 6 years old at the time and his mother was 28, and over the years my emotional attachment and dependance on them has grown stronger and deeper and in some ways replaced my dependance on God. The love within my family has always been strong, we have always been good friends; even while going through the suffering of watching our son go through the pain and heartache of the teen years and early 20s and the brokenness that occurs for everyone during that time. We all make poor decisions, put ourselves in situations we always said we would not allow to happen to us. We all went through those years when we experimented with the vices of those we see around us and think to ourselves that nothing bad is going to happen to me, I know many other people die because of putting themselves in some of these situations and circumstances, but it couldn&#8217;t happen to me. Especially when you&#8217;ve grown up with a relationship with God; you grow up constantly hearing the words &#8220;ask anything in his name and it will be given to you&#8221;, &#8220;in all things God works for the good of those who love him&#8221;, etc&#8230; and you think the prodigal son&#8217;s story will be your story, I&#8217;m going to go have my fun for a while and then when I&#8217;m ready I&#8217;ll come back to Him and he&#8217;ll receive me like the loving father I know He is.</p>
<p>For me right now I am suffering on many, many levels and the hardest to deal with is the fact that I do not have the ability to be the source of comfort and security for my wife while she suffers the grief of losing her son. I am grieving his death as well on my own terms and it has caused a great deal of anguish and tears for me, but I cannot compare what I feel to her pain, I will never fully understand or relate to giving birth to a child, feeling him grow inside her belly, nursing him as an infant and having him depend completely on her for his physical, emotional and spiritual needs.</p>
<p>Death causes you to question everything, regret many things, wonder &#8220;what if&#8221; about every decision you&#8217;ve ever made that effected the person who is now gone. It brings your own weaknesses and faults to the surface and makes you look long and hard at the reflection of yourself as seen through the now broken mirror. This is true of all deaths for those close to us, but even more so for a child who depended on you for everything for so many years. Kyail&#8217;s mother taught him to walk, talk, laugh, cry, love and be loved. I believe this is the heart behind what C.S. Lewis meant when he said &#8220;Tribulations cannot cease until God either sees us remade or sees that our remaking is now hopeless.&#8221; When grief strikes you hard and forces you to examine yourself you have a choice, you can either allow the examination to remake you into something new, or become hopeless and lost and in the end become useless to everyone around you. Whatever choice you make you will never be the same person again.</p>
<p>In my relationship with my wife and our surviving two children I now have to face all the questions, concerns and insecurities that my choices over the years have caused them. I can never be God, will never be perfect, and the truth of that is brutally hard to accept. I cannot change the past or take back a single word I&#8217;ve ever spoken; and in situations like this one after 16 years of marriage there have been many many misspoken words and poor judgements and just plain stupid decisions. We&#8217;ve even discussed statements I made on our wedding day that she probably hasn&#8217;t thought of in many years, but the emotion of dealing with her own grief makes her now remember those words, feelings and insecurities with a renewed sense of pain, anger and hurt. For all of those kinds of things all I can do is say that I am sorry and pray for forgiveness from her and from God. But this is a profound and deeply moving and life changing event. I am being remade, reconstructed, and hopefully in the end I will be a better man, husband and father.</p>
<div id="_mcePaste"><em><strong>The cords of death entangled me; the torrents of destruction overwhelmed me.</strong></em></div>
<div id="_mcePaste"><em><strong>The cords of the grave coiled around me; the snares of death confronted me.</strong></em></div>
<div id="_mcePaste"><em><strong>In my distress I called to the Lord; I cried to my God for help. From his temple he heard my voice; my cry came before him, into his ears.</strong></em></div>
<div id="_mcePaste"><em><strong>The earth trembled and quaked, and the foundations of the mountains shook; they trembled because he was angry.</strong></em></div>
<div style="text-align: right;"><em><strong>Psalm 18:4-7</strong></em></div>
<p>The earth has trembled and quaked in God&#8217;s anger about lots of things &#8211; I do not believe that my sin has caused my son&#8217;s death, it just reveals so many things about me that need to change. In the face of that trembling and quaking from God I fall prostrate before him and weep bitterly and tremble in fear. God gave me a precious gift in my wife and children and I have not respected that position with the intensity, purity and honor that I should, I have allowed my struggles over the years and my desire for independence to come before my family and have so destroyed my wife&#8217;s security in our marriage. So now while facing her grief over losing her son when she should have been able to depend on our marriage to comfort her, she has nothing to hold on to.</p>
<p>Am I being unreasonable or irrational? I don&#8217;t think so. I accepted my position in her life when I married her and made vows to her and to God that I would honor cherish and love her until death parts us. There has now been a death and I am examining my vows and my love for her with a renewed zeal that I should be using to evaluate myself on a daily basis. Is it too late for us? I am not sure&#8230; she needs time to grieve and time to heal and I have not been a security for her for so long that I am not sure if she will ever again come to a place where she has room for us, or room for forgiving me for all my faults. And why should she?</p>
<p>Then Job replied to the Lord: &#8220;I know that you can do all things; no plan of yours can be thwarted.&#8221; You asked, ‘Who is this that obscures my counsel without knowledge?’ Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know. Job 42:1-3</p>
<p>From our point of view the death of our son will always be painful and difficult to accept. But from God&#8217;s point of view these are things too wonderful for our human minds and bodies to comprehend. Wonderful is such a carefully placed word in this passage and I believe it speaks volumes about what God wanted to communicate to us in Job&#8217;s story. What God is doing is truly wonderful, we just have no clue what is wonderful about it.</p>
<p>As I face myself in my grief I am destroyed, hopeless and in despair. And yet I am hopeful and optimistic about what our future holds. God is able to restore all things and bring us to a place of endless bliss I know that and I pray for that. But in the end my wife&#8217;s happiness must be first, before anything about me. I must die in order to become something more, something new, something better than myself. I must die so that God can live in me, death is painful, agonizing, brutal in its intensity; and yet wonderful. When a flower dies and decays and passes back into the earth a dozen new plants grow up in its place and I pray to be filled with more than I have ever known.</p>
<p>God please recreate me.</p>
<p>I am very well aware that many of you reading this cannot comprehend the depth of the feelings we are experiencing, fail to see the reason for such acceptance from me. I know so many men who don&#8217;t even come close to the depth of feeling and emotion that my wife and I have shared over the years. But it is for this very reason that I should feel the way I do. I long for her happiness, long to provide for her a warm and comforting hug, a tender touch. Many people reading this will look at us and wonder if there is some deep dark secret behind my feelings. No there isn&#8217;t. But every time she has asked me in the past 16 years if I had too much to drink while out &#8211; and I knew it to be the case and lied to her about it &#8211; I detracted from the security she feels in trusting me with larger pieces of her heart. Every time I was unable to pay a bill because of some stupid decision on my part to spend money frivolously, and then lied to her about it because I didn&#8217;t want to disappoint her. Every one of the little things adds up over the years, becomes a habitual pattern in your marriage and detracts from your wife&#8217;s ability to trust you with even the smallest of things. How much more with the bigger things.</p>
<p>And now when she needed complete trust the most; all of the honest truth of my house of cards comes crashing down. And I am glad for it, and yet I am bitterly sad for the pain this has caused in her. Now we can live with honesty and openness in our relationship, no matter what the outcome. It rips my heart to pieces to think we would not survive this and that she somehow would be unable to reach a period of trust in me again, but it is of little consequence what I feel. I am nothing, deserve nothing. In the end she must find her own happiness and security and if somehow she can regain that trust in me through my actions then we will have an even better relationship than we ever did before. Perhaps. In time.</p>
<p>Why share this in my publicly accessible blog on the internet?</p>
<p><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; line-height: normal; font-size: 12px;"><a href="http://www.aardvarc.org/dv/statistics.shtml">Nearly one-third of American women (31 percent) report being physically or sexually abused by a husband or boyfriend at some point in their lives.</a></span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; line-height: normal; font-size: 12px;">Not to mention other family members.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: arial, sans-serif; line-height: normal; font-size: 12px;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', 'Bitstream Charter', Times, serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 19px;">Men still have the power in most relationships, we manipulate and control everything about our lives and it takes great courage for a woman to be completely and utterly vulnerable with us and trust that we are going to honor and respect our relationship with her. When a woman has given you her trust and agreed to support you as her husband and in most cases as the main decision maker in your household, she exhibits more courage in that decision than you will ever understand. It is your responsibility to keep the honor that she has given you.</span></span></p>
<p>It takes more courage and strength to be honest with your life, than to keep the realities you live with every day to yourself and maintain the facade that you maintain in public. Do you think me more or less of a man because I share my turmoil openly &#8211; I really don&#8217;t care. &#8220;Ok well I do&#8221; but I wish not to.</p>
<p>In the end if I am nothing in your eyes then the greatness that comes from the life I live will be credited to my relationship with God and my family. I am noble and proud and strong in my own eyes, and yet I am a wretched and manipulative man, full of deceit and every kind of evil desire (I am a human being). Even in writing this I have to ask myself why, am I writing this in the hopes that my wife will read this and be softened to trusting me again? Or am I truly broken and desire to change? I am unsure of myself with that question.</p>
<p>God has given me so much, talents, physical strength, mental capacity, sensitivity, confidence, the ability to write and teach, etc&#8230; etc&#8230; &#8220;From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked.&#8221; Luke 12:48</p>
<p>If you have a lot of turmoil in your life &#8211; perhaps God is telling you how much he has given you and asking you in return &#8220;what have you done with all your gifts?&#8221;</p>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 05 Oct 2010 17:42:31 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 09 Aug 2010 20:30:35 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span style="font-weight: normal;">You never know how much of an impact you are having on the world you live in. Live a quiet peaceful life and although everything doesn&#8217;t work out as well as you would like for it to work out, you have an amazing impact on the people who&#8217;s lives you touch. I&#8217;ve not in my short life so far been impacted as much by this reality as I have been this past year. After losing my job in Chicago I moved back close to my home town in Tampa, Florida, and in the move I&#8217;ve re-connected with many friends and family who have impacted my life profoundly over the years.</span></p>
<p>Most of the people who have had the largest impact in my life have done so in similar ways as my art teacher from high-school. He was a completely different kind of &#8220;teacher&#8221; than any I had experienced before. He had a formal lesson plan for the year, every year, but when a student in his class showed some level of both talent and desire to learn, instead of making us conform to the lesson plan he laid out for the year he allowed us to develop our own plan of action with some mutual advice from him and his experience in working with the educational system. Especially in 11th and 12th grades while we were preparing to go off to college and develop some form of a career. Instead of forcing us to succumb to tests and evaluations he allowed us to find what our talents would uncover by the natural progression of being surrounded by artistic inspiration and competition.</p>
<p>Competition was a key for me, I loved to win. I wasn&#8217;t much of a person in the athletic arena, I weighed only 110lbs from 9th grade until I was about 26 years old. But put a piece of paper in front of me, or a piece of chalk, or even a pencil and a napkin, and I will demand the attention of everyone around me by creating something out of nothing. I have always loved to do that. It actually began all the way back in 5th grade when I began drawing cartoons on the playground &#8211; the girls all wanted me to do a drawing for them &#8211; and I very quickly realized that this was a much less painful method of wooing the girls than the athletic competition happening on the jungle gym or the football or baseball fields. Don&#8217;t get me wrong I was pretty decent in most sports and played baseball, football, ran track and took Shotokan for several years. But I was never one of the best at any of those things and I always felt that God put me here to be the best at something. Not just one of those guys on the team, there was somewhere that I was supposed to be the captain, the leader, the president and something inside me would settle for nothing less. Of course after high school I have yet to become the president of anything substantial, but I am still searching!</p>
<p>Mr Verge&#8217;s teaching style was incredibly refreshing, we actually used to sneak out of other classes by forging notes claiming to be from Mr. Verge and go to his class to work on whatever piece we were working on at the time. How many students do you know that skip school or classes &#8211; not to leave school and get into some kind of mischief &#8211; but to go to another classroom to work on a project for college entrances and scholarship competitions? Mr. Verge created an atmosphere of comfort and freedom that didn&#8217;t exist in most other places. My father didn&#8217;t understand the value of that freedom until the end of 11th grade when I began wining competitions worth money! But he eventually came around and became a huge advocate for my career.</p>
<p>It took me almost 25 years to come back home and reconnect with Mr. Verge and many of the students from those days in school. Now I find out that I was only one of many many students that thrived under Mr. Verge&#8217;s unique style. Florida&#8217;s educational system will have a very large void to fill indeed after he retires from teaching!</p>
<p>Thank you Mr. Verge for giving all of your students over the years such a welcome place of solitude and freedom for all of us to find ourselves. We all owe you a great deal&#8230;. <a href="http://suncoastpasco.tbo.com/content/2010/may/18/190000/pe-students-frame-a-perfect-ending-for-art-teacher/" target="_blank">http://suncoastpasco.tbo.com/content/2010/may/18/190000/pe-students-frame-a-perfect-ending-for-art-teacher/</a></p>
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		<pubDate>Wed, 04 Aug 2010 19:54:41 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[I am working on a FREE classroom for registering a new domain, setting up WordPress (Or any other opensource platform) and then linking your site to all the social media networks. I often get asked to provide assistance in getting these kinds of things accomplished so instead of spending hours with each person that asks [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I am working on a FREE classroom for registering a new domain, setting up WordPress (Or any other opensource platform) and then linking your site to all the social media networks.</p>
<p>I often get asked to provide assistance in getting these kinds of things accomplished so instead of spending hours with each person that asks me for help I thought I would provide a step by step instruction manual on doing these things.</p>
<p>My classroom is based on using the hosting company <a href="http://www.hostek.com" target="_blank">Hostek</a>, where I have all of my own websites hosted, WordPress which is my primary application platform of choice, and then using plug-ins to enable all kinds of social media connectivity with Twitter, FaceBook, You Tube, LinkedIn, and countless other social media tools.</p>
<p>Let me know how you like the <a href="http://www.psmdesign.com/psmblog/?page_id=599">class</a>!!!!</p>
<p>Sincerely,<br />
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		<pubDate>Fri, 30 Jul 2010 14:36:22 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Shaun McNicholas</dc:creator>
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><span style="font-weight: normal;"><a rel="attachment wp-att-587" href="http://www.psmdesign.com/psmblog/?attachment_id=587"><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-587" style="margin-right: 20px; margin-left: 20px; margin-top: 0px; margin-bottom: 0px;" title="41778_140190745992558_389_n" src="http://psmdevelopment.com/psmblog/wp-content/uploads/2010/07/41778_140190745992558_389_n.jpg" alt="" width="200" height="181" /></a>I helped a friend of mine develop this game application that is now available in FaceBook as well as directly from the net, the iPhone application should be out soon. Check it out and let me know what you think. It&#8217;s a very cool concept! Find the matching person from the random face image and you&#8217;ll win an iPod Nano! For real! Trust me all of us involved will make sure that the prizes are legit! Actually I&#8217;ve seen the prizes and he&#8217;s got some great stuff to give away!!!!</span></p>
<p><span style="font-weight: normal;">The first portion of the game ends tonight at 9 PM EST so get involved early. The game is much more interesting when more people get involved!!!</span></p>
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